There are moments in my life I will never forget. Wedding, births, loss of a child, joyful first steps, and a million moments in between.
All week I was consumed with an ache in my stomach and worry on my face.
We were preparing to go test our youngest for an genetic illness that would change his life forever. I laid in bed, staring at the ceiling, with tears sliding down silently to the pillow, into the early hours of morning.
I mentally prepared to change direction, walk away from my work, and focus on his care. I felt assured my message of empowering women, building community and lifting each other up would be carried on beautifully by my Blissful Family. I built a company on doing the most good for the most people, and have surrounded myself with smart women; I would leave it all in excellent hands. I had peace.
Thursday was spent wringing my hands and waiting at Vanderbilt. I pretended I was OK. I laughed, I joked, I sent silly Tweets. I desperately wanted a corner to hide in and cry.
The test result was in, I fearfully answered the call and I will never forget that moment. He is fine. As I type the words to share with you, my sweet friends, I cry.
My days are packed with so much. The sweetness of snuggling the littlest boys. The struggle of discipline with the older boys. The tug-of-war and reconciliation of marriage. The constant struggle to find enough time in the day to work. Combined with my devotion to shirking household duties and skipping showers, I live in a whirlwind. These moments cause the whirlwind to stop, and I refocused on the good.
Have you had a moment where everything stopped? Where you saw things clearly for the first time in who-knows-how-long?
I am blessed. I’ve been given more than I could ever deserve. I never want to lose sight of that again.
Don’t let the tyranny of the urgent keep you distracted.
How are you blessed?
I would love to hear.
xo, Alli
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I know I’m reading this late but I had to comment. I’m choked up and teary-eyed. It’s so easy to forget. My moment was when I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. I was beginning to fear I’d never have children. I waited so long – and there it was in my hands, “Pregnant.” I didn’t move for a full 5 minutes. I sat very still, very silent, with tears streaming down my cheeks and thanked the Lord for the rich blessing on my life. Thanks so much for sharing. The reminder is welcome
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Seeing the positive side of things and how blessed I am is not always easy. I’m a “green” blogger and after reading an e-mail from someone who has been reading it (she was commenting on how much I “adore” my husband), I realized that blogging (yeah… blogging…) is helping me to focus so much more on what’s going well in my life, with my kids, in my marriage. It’s helping me to keep it real. I wonder if other women bloggers have the same experience?
Wonderful outcome! And like Andrea, blogging (and Tweeting and Facebooking…) does serve to focus me, not only in making sure my activities are aligned with what I say my priorities are, but also in drilling down to the “real” me. By that I mean that when you’re using multiple platforms, your authenticity comes out if you let it. (I see this most clearly with Facebook where people from all facets and aspects and time periods of my life converge together.)
Thanks for sharing, and again, this is excellent, beautiful news. I just now read this post — the title plus the date (my son’s b’day) caught my eye.
My moment came on Good Friday ‘08. I had been to church for a beautiful ceremony and it was two days before my husband was returning from Afghanistan after a 14 month deployment. I left the service uplifted and ready to burst with feelings of joy and appreciation. I had survived this agonizing separation with my life and my family in tact! I immediately drove to the beach and sat staring and crying while the waves echoed my joy. I couldn’t believe how lucky I was and how blessed I truly am. God has been good to me and He continues to do so.
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